The first step...

Being my first dig at blogging, I thought of taking an easy step here. So let me post a very old article I wrote for my school book about 12 years ago!! Here it goes....

Ruminations

If marks are any proof of my intelligence, mine only seem to establish the existence of an empty head. Reference could be made to the wealth of a pauper as far as my brain cells are concerned. Gone are those happy moments when I used to enjoy my life with my friends with not a care in the world. Gone is that innocence that had made me the cynosure of every eye.

My search for identity has begun…

It was with joyous and excited jubilation that 1997 greeted me and I, the year. It would make me the senior most off all the students. I was to be an idol for the kinder garden puppets of my school! The proud feeling of having gained the respect of those chubby cheeks filled my heart. My journey till this moment had always been through the background score- “Dear, you are going to face the PUBLIC”. But all the new decisions and excitement lasted only for one week as the pressure of PUBLIC Exams began to take its toll.

Hours and days were traveling quickly but for me time had come to a standstill. I had to weigh my future on an unreliable balance. The direction and magnitude to which it would extend was a mystery. Quarterly exams found me coughing heavily. Could I fulfill the wishes and dreams of my family? Could I repay them with a reward of success? The corridors of Alpha (my school) must have clearly felt the pumping of every heart, which sailed across. I was still not prepared for another war with books. But nowadays when even elections come as midterm polls, why not exams! The midterm exams found me waging a great war to seize all the knowledge that those bulky books could serve me with. My eyes counted stars as I came across new and unknown terms in my text books. Oh God! Why did you bless me with the power to sleep during working hours? I was paying the price for it! A revision of the syllabus was a “Mission Impossible”. Even a glance through those statistics put me in great dilemma. I had a lot of blank answer sheets to spare even after the examinations got over-the only gain I had!

All my success and failures so far, had taken place mostly in the compound of a divine institution. It was this tree of knowledge, which brought out the man in me. It gave me a vision of life. It taught me to follow the dictates of my conscience in the true spirit of life. But now all those privileges I enjoyed as a student in a school were coming to an end. Those friends I made, the times I shared were all to be just memories now. The final stage was set for me to enter the adult world.

Words cannot express what I have gained from my Alma Mater. It has given me the confidence to believe in myself. It had made me feel special, and assured me that I am the best candidate for the job God had set for me. Nobody in this Universe has my combination of talents, ideals, abilities and feelings. I am unique and so is everyone else.

The tears roll down as I think about all I will miss, once I leave these hallowed portals. Will the future make me as a special person as I felt here? Time alone will tell.

Wow!!! hope to be around to write more than this...until then..chao...

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