The Vision

The day is gone, the night seems so long, Between heaven and hell, My mind wanders alone...

It is past 3am and I can't sleep. This has been the trend for a while now. Random thoughts about realities in my life keep me awake! I am not sure if these are random thoughts or clear signals on what I want to do or need to do. My mind is usually restless. This part of my character does help me. It helps me think and analyze those aspects of my character, behaviour and life in general. These thoughts helps me decide how I can improve myself everyday of my life. It is also true that this restless mind keeps me busy in my own world, sometimes away from the outside world. It makes me retreat and quiet. I have always wondered what motivates people. I am still trying to figure out what motivates me. Is it success, money, the idea of achievement or the underlying happiness that comes with these factors? Does it make any difference to understand the truth behind motivation? Will it help me be a better person?

I just completed celebrating the 33rd birthday of my life. It was quiet and peaceful, just the way I like it. The question that popped up in my mind was not if I spent the day well. It was if I have spent the previous 33 years well. I really don't have the answer, but I do hope that this question will always push me to do well for the rest of my life. It may be the Gemini in me that keeps me wandering. I have always wanted to learn different things in my life. During school days, other than books, I kept myself busy with athletics, basketball, football and cricket. I guess, there was a news junkie in me pondering all over daily newspapers. These days, I am not keeping myself updated with the daily news and I don't like it. My interests in games expanded to volleyball, table tennis and more recently golf and tennis. I hope to spend more time with golf and tennis this summer. Photography has been a passion for me for many years though it was only in the last 5 years that I actu...